Growing up I don’t remember being much of a crier, maybe when I was small but as I reached my teen years, tears weren’t shed very often. I hid behind closed doors thinking they were a sign of weakness. I built up walls during my HS years that didn’t let many in to really know me let alone see me cry. I think the first time that I actually remember letting someone (besides immediate family) see me cry was when I found out that I was pregnant with Belinda. Adele, my boss at the time, saw that I was on the brink of tears. I mean I was single (planning on getting married) and NOW I was pregnant with a child I desperately wanted even if her biological father wasn’t for it. I can remember Adele telling (multiple times) “when you cry – you are getting ready to grow”. As I look back on the last 25 years, she is right! Every time I am struggling with an problem, an circumstance – anything really and I am on the brink of tears, I know that it won’t be long and a change will be coming. There have been tears of happiness, gratitude and excitement. Tears of sadness, anxiety and motherly worry.
“You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book” (Psalm 56:8). If that is not a comforting thought – God cares enough to keep track of our tears. Such a comforting thought that as I shed tears, he is there with loving arms to comfort me. When I get teary, I begin to wonder “what does God have in store for me now?” Tears are an amazing cleansing process – they wash away the pain and sorrow even during those joyous occasions.
So, as I reflect on the past week, the struggles, and the joys – I get a little teary. I know that Satan has been having a field day with my emotions but God is there if only I will TRUST and BELIEVE. Tears are no longer a sign of weakness but of cleansing and growth. A renewed strength to overcome any challenge and climb the highest mountain. Just when I think the tears are for an unmet goal, unfulfilled dream – God reminds me that this may be a blessing in disguise. Take comfort in his arms, shed those tears and remember that there is always a rainbow that appears after a storm.
Have a ThirtyOne-derful day.