“In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help.” (Psalm 18:6 NIV)
WOW! When I saw my this in my daily devotions – it hit home! See, I forgot to cry out for help then to stop and listen to God’s response until a nightmare got my attention. Let me explain….On Friday night, I woke up from a HORRIBLE dream. You may know the kind – so real that when you wake up, you are shaking, crying and looking to make sure that the dream is not real. Well, that is what happened to me. The essence of the dream was that hubby threw me out. I don’t mean just asked me to leave but told me to get out NOW, threw my stuff out of the house keeping everything that he had bought or we had bought together. Before you start asking, NO we are not fighting, NO we are not having any problems. Rob is loving, caring and generally supportive of my may escapades. I am sure it is not always easy for him, the planner, to understand this creative, spontaneous entrepreneur. So on Saturday morning, I reached out to my Thirty One sisters for guidance and support. I mean who could I share this craziness with that wouldn’t jump to conclusions, right? Rob and I have been together 11 years (in 3 days) and married for 2 1/2 of them. We have our ups and downs but life is good – so why I am I so crazy?
After getting some reassurance, I was honest with Rob about the dream. I told him the whole horrid story as much as I could remember. His response “what did I do?”. He was sweet because the truth was, it wasn’t him at all – it was ME that needed the help. I will admit that I often want to “fix” Rob. I am sure some of you can relate to this or at least I hope you can. If only he would…..(you finish the sentence). The truth is I am the one that needed fixing. Rob hasn’t changed – he is and always has been supportive, caring, and loving. I on the other hand had let “Negative Nellie” take nest in my head and my heart. On the outside it may not show but inside I was having doubts about EVERYTHING – my business, my finances, my future, our future, my weight loss and I am sure there are more doubts that I didn’t even realize that I had at the moment.
From the negative of the horrible dream to the grace of God’s love – this week has begun to transform the inner me. Okay, so I am not cured from all doubts but I do realize what is happening. I ASKED and LISTENED to God’s response. Rob and I have talked a lot this week about my business, my fears (and his) and I have been blessed to be a part of a Book Club with my fellow Thirty One Leaders that is helping me to find the Joy in everything. The book we are reading is: The Energy Bus by Jon Gordon – “10 Rules to Fuel Your Life, Work, and Team with Positive Energy”. Get it, read it and see if YOU need to get on the Joy “Energy Bus”.
Who or what are you trying to fix? Ask God to help for it may be YOU and NOT the other person that needs to be fixed. Then LISTEN for his answer. Please share your strengths, hopes and experiences with us.
Have a ThirtyOne-derful day!