“The Lord is good to those who wait hopefully and expectantly for Him, to those who seek Him.” Lamentations 3:25a (AMP)
Waiting combined with patience are not two of my strong points. I am a “wave the magic wand” kind of girl. I want instant relief – you know the pounds to just melt away, the pain to go away, the confidence to magically appear – do you see where I am coming from? I see prayers answered quickly (or so it seems) for others. I long for the answers. You know the grass is always greener on the other side theory. As time creeps on, my doubts creep in. The doubts are not really about God’s ability to answer my prayers but more on my worthiness to receive the blessings.
As I look back on my life, I can see where it always seemed to take time for my prayers to be answered – or at least longer than I thought it should. As time went on and my answers didn’t show up, I’d get discouraged and frustrated. My waiting turned to worry. My perseverance shifted to pouting.
As I began the journey with my counselor/life coach and began reading the Purpose Driven Life, I have to admit that I am beginning to see the invisible wall that I built around my heart so I wouldn’t be disappointed if God didn’t answer my prayers. It is a wall built by endless fear, hurt, lack of self-esteem and the belief that despite saying the words “God has forgiven me” for my mistakes – I haven’t forgiven myself.
Can you say “adjustment disorder”? Adjustment disorder is a short-term condition that occurs when a person is unable to cope with, or adjust to, a particular source of stress, such as a major life change, loss, or event. When did my brain forget that this was a short-term condition???
Now, I am wondering what it looks like to have an attitude of hope and expectancy as I wait for my prayers to be answered. According to a devotional that I read, here are three ways to shift my focus:
God’s Promises: I read Bible verses every morning. I pray that God will fill me with hope and encouragement. I believe in Gods unfailing love and faithfulness. Unfortunately, some days, I think that His promises are for others but not for me.
Praise & Worship: I listen to praise music throughout the day in my house, car and in my office. In those sweet moments, my worries fade, turning my doubts into confident expectancy. I feel like anything is possible.
Thanksgiving: I thank God for EVERYTHING especially the miracles in my past. I remember how God always came through in those tough times, and the times of great need. I struggle though with thanking Him in advance for His yet to come answers.
As I wait for God’s answers feeling like I am waiting longer than I planned, I am going to take a moment to thank Him in advance for His answer. I am going to trust that He is working behind the scenes on my behalf. I am not going to give up.
Lord, thank You for remaining faithful to me. Help me have hope and expectancy as I wait for Your answers to my prayers. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.