“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.” Psalm 46:1 (NIV)
Have you ever wanted something so badly and prayed to God that he would give it to you only to have the opportunity slip away? Have you ever thought that if God really loved or cared for me, he would help me NOW?
I know that God is with me – even if I don’t hear him. I know that he is there – watching. I struggle when I see the prayers of others being answered and mine appear to go unanswered. I struggle when I pray (or ask for something) that I think is part of God’s plan only to loose out on the opportunity. I struggle comparing my walk to other’s.
It is with God’s grace that I made it through my promiscuous life. It is with God’s grace that I came out of my addiction. It is because if God’s grace that I was able to raise my amazing daughter, Belinda. With all of the grace that I have been given, why do I struggle now when the answers don’t come.
Did I believe that God had a hand in keeping me safe and bringing through my crazy life? NO! Looking back I can see his loving hand – the people he put in my life, the jobs, the nudges (okay so maybe they were shoves) towards him. Yet today, I long for that refuge and strength. Totally believing and trusting in him to take care of things.
As I work through issues with my life coach, I trust that there is a reason why things are not happening in MY time. I know – everything in God’s time but how come we aren’t on the same page at the same time?
In my heart, I trust that God is right beside me protecting me… loving me… listening to me. I just wish that I could hear what he is saying so that I could move a little quicker along this path.
He is the One in whom I find comfort and reassurance: “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world” (John 16:33, NIV).
He is right here with me in the midst of my trouble, I am not alone: “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble” (Psalm 46:1).
Sometimes God’s power is shown as much in preventing things as it is in making them happen. We may never know why. But we can always know and trust the Who.
Dear Lord, thank You for knowing what I need and what I don’t — even when I don’t agree. Help me see Your “yes” and “no” as protection and guidance. Today, I choose to trust You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Have a ThirtyOne-derful day!