Last week was a whirlwind of activity – the trip to North Carolina, our daughter’s wedding, end of the month craziness with my business, a new opportunity and the start of a new month. I know, it doesn’t sound like much right? A normal two weeks for some and for me it has been a struggle.
When I left for North Carolina, I felt confident like I had everything in place following God’s plan. When I arrived home, I felt lost and confused. I want every blessing God has for me and I know that you feel the same way. And honestly, sometimes I just don’t get the way He works. No hate mail, please! I am sure I am not alone in trying to understand whether things are a blessing or a trial.
My faith in God should be unwavering, and I should never doubt or question Him or His plan. But the truth is sometimes I do. I started off our trip sharing my business with some new potential customers. As the week went on, I felt confident as I shared with others. I arrive home and SMACK! I have doubts and fears. My personal sales where I expected but my team sales were off. How can I expect my team to do things, if I am not doing them, right? No this is not a pity party it is about trying to understand God’s plan.
The problem is not that God refuses to bless my life. The problem is that I need to understand what a true blessing is.
I ask God to meet financial needs … and my sales are down, so are my checks.
I seek deliverance from depression … but I still struggle every day.
I get through one crisis … only to find another one waiting.
I am learning how to see all of these problems as blessings.
When my sales are down and checks are low, God used this to create a desperate desire for my business, to step out of my comfort zone, to watch my spending.
Depression keeps me desperate for God and helps me relate to other women who struggle with the darkness.
Living through a crisis helps me understand that I can trust Him in every storm that comes my way.
“And if ye, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Heavenly Father which is in heaven, give to those who ask Him?” Matthew 7:11
As humans, we will never fully understand God – this side of heaven. We may understand some of His ways and comprehend the reasoning behind some of His plans. But a full understanding of God is reserved for heaven. Until then, we need to walk by faith, not by sight. We praise Him in the darkness, knowing that the light is just ahead. We trust Him for things we cannot see and rest in Him when the darkness comes.
Sometimes we miss God’s blessings because they don’t come like we expect them to come. What are you asking God to do in your life? Maybe He has already done it and you just don’t see it. Maybe the blessing is there – a treasure in the darkness.
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Have a ThirtyOne-derful day!