Living life on life’s terms….
It seems like a lifetime ago when a friend/business coach told me to “brand myself” and challenged me to blog. I didn’t know what my brand was or who I was writing for. I shared my life story, business tips for other direct sellers, recipes and more. And so it went for almost 4 years.
Then life happened….. a relapse, health issues with no official diagnosis and still not knowing my “brand”. So I cut back my blog posts to 3 times a week. So it went for another 2 years…. Still I struggled trying to find my “niche”‘ in the blogging world. I felt “less than”. I compared myself to those who were making money blogging. I didn’t know what I wanted to do….
In January 2020, I made the decision to ONLY write when I wanted to…..I was relieved but lost at the same time. Writing my blog was a way to trigger memories and help me remember things the MS had stolen from me. It was part of who I was. So, here we are in October 2020 and the writing bug has hit. Okay, so that is today. LOL. I’m going to take it slow but I am excited to get back to writing.
My life has been a roller coaster journey: growing up as an only child in a middle class family, a child of domestic violence, parent’s divorce, drug addiction, bulimia, single mom, social worker, entrepreneur, wife, MS warrior, relapse and recovery. The road has not always been easy but with God’s help (and my Guardian Angels), I have survived with a variety of gifts and talents. It is my story but I have learned some where out there is someone else who may need to hear it too.
I am grateful for my relapse. I am sorry for the pain and heartache I caused the ones I love BUT I have found an inner peace I haven’t had in years. The inner gremlins don’t rear their heads as often. I don’t do the shoulda, coulda woulda anymore…..I let down my husband, my mom, and my daughter but most of all I let myself down when I relapsed BUT I am working hard to re-build those relationships.
I am not sure where this blog may head. I know there are other women out there who struggle and may need some encouragement, I want to help by sharing my strength, hope and experience. I’m stepping out of my comfort zone, trusting all of this is happening for a reason and knowing my Guardian Angels will keep me safe….
Have a blessed day!