In March 2013, a friend/business coach told me to “brand myself”. She then promptly challenged me to blog. I didn’t know what my brand was or who I was writing for. I shared my life story, business tips for other direct sellers, recipes and more. And so it went for almost 4 years.
Then life got in the way….. a relapse, health issues with no official diagnosis and still trying to find my “brand”. So I cut back my blog posts to 3 times a week – Sunday, Tuesday, and Thursday. So it went for another 2 years…. Still I struggled trying to find my “niche”‘ in the blogging world.
In January 2020, I was unsure what to write about so I made the decision to ONLY write when I wanted to…..I was relieved but lost at the same time. Writing my blog was a way to trigger memories and help me remember things the MS was slowly stealing from me….
My life has been a roller coaster journey: growing up as an only child in a middle class family, being a child of domestic violence, parent’s divorce, drug addiction, bulimia, single mom, social worker, entrepreneur, wife, MS warrior and relapse and recovery. The road has not always been easy but with God’s help (and my Guardian Angels), I have survived with a variety of gifts and talents.
As strange as it sounds, I am grateful for my relapse. I am sorry for the pain and heartache I caused the ones I love BUT I have found an inner peace I haven’t had in years. The inner gremlins don’t rear their heads as often. I don’t do the shoulda, coulda woulda anymore…..I let down my husband, my mom, and my daughter but most of all I let myself down when I relapsed BUT I am working hard to re-build those relationships.
I am not sure where this blog may head. I know there are other women out there who struggle and may need some encouragement, I want to help by sharing my strength, hope and experience. I’m stepping out of my comfort zone, trusting all of this is happening for a reason and knowing my Guardian Angels will keep me safe….
Have a blessed day!