This morning I was struggling about what to post…. when this happens I generally scroll through the hundreds of past blog posts to see if something grabs my attention. I’m grateful for the long list of blogs because it is a reminder of my life – the good, the bad and the ugly.
As the end of the fiscal year with Thirty One ends and a new one begins – doubt starts to creep in. Weird since I had my highest career sales in 2020-2021 and most days I am comfortable where my business and my life are. It usually means, I haven’t taken enough time to seek God’s guidance in the morning.
Every morning in my Facebook memories, I see a quote from “Get Your Girl Back Movement” and no matter how old the message is, it seems to hit home! Today’s was…
You can do it Hope and if you couldn’t, God would not have given you the dream in the first place. If you would have put as much time into your dream as you do questioning yourself and your ability it would have already been accomplished. Now- stop asking and go make your dream come true!
Kind of funny because since the MS, I struggle with dreaming. I have a wish list of things I would like to do but not a BIG dream. My last BIG dream was to pay off my credit card debt and I’m grateful with the help of my side hustle, this is DONE! Financial freedom can be scary for an addict in recovery – money in the savings account, bills paid and the ability to enjoy each day without the stress of how to pay for things. I have to consciously remember how unmanageable life was during my addiction (yes, shopping can be an addiction too).
MS has taught me to live in the moment (most days) because who knows what tomorrow will bring. Planning long term can be stressful and tends to lead me into a fix, manage and control state of mind. Not good for my MS or my recovery. I think I squirreled.. LOL.
As I think about the new fiscal business year, I wonder what God would want me to do. I’m doing a 6-week training program so I am focusing on being intentional about what God wants from me each day. The problem is when a thought or idea hits, Doubtful Debbie pays a visit. What are my dreams? Are they mine or what I think they “should be”? Will they bring me joy? Will they help me reach my purpose in life? I know I am not alone, right?
Then out of no where the message “STOP QUESTIONING YOURSELF” appears. I take a breath and quiet my mind (not always easy). I know my purpose is “to make a difference”, as basic as it is, it is my life’s mission. From simply putting a smile on someone’s face, sharing words of encouragement, or raising funds for a cause – one small act of kindness can make a difference.
I’m not sure who needed to hear this, but I hope at least one person is helped by knowing they are not alone. How do I stop questioning myself? As soon as I realize it is happening, I close my eyes, take a deep breath and release. Bless and release. Sounds easy, right? Believe me, if you struggle with this – you know it takes lots of practice. If I can’t get out of my head I do something else – work on my puzzle, read, take a walk and enjoy God’s beauty or work on a blog post. I do things to bring me joy and help me to kick Doubtful Debbie to the curb.
What are YOU questioning yourself about? Do you have a dream that gets pushed to the side when life gets too busy? Or are you like me and when that happens, you begin to doubt your dream? Just for today, stop asking AND make your dream come true. Who is with me??
Have a ThirtyOne-derful day!