The New Year triggers LOTS of talk about setting BIG goals, and following your passion. So, what are you passionate about?
Passion is defined as: a strong feeling of enthusiasm or excitement for something or about doing something.
Sadly, for me……I feel like my MS has stolen this from me. 😦 I have always kicked off January excited about what the year would bring…. Over the years, my passion for things has changed – I have to admit I don’t think I was really passionate about anything (or at least I don’t remember) until I started volunteering with the South Jersey AIDS Alliance. That is when I started to understand what the word passion was all about. My passion for those infected and affected by HIV/AIDS continues even 25+ years later. It may not be as evident now but there was a time when everyone knew it was my passion. Then my passion became a larger group of underserved populations (the homeless, the underemployed, etc.) when I began working for Bethel, a non-profit with a soup kitchen, food pantry and many other programs. Making a difference in the lives of people was what I wanted to do……
Then Thirty One entered my life. In the beginning it was just a hobby then it became a passion. Sparks are flamed by my hostesses, my customers and my team. it brought in a steady income and allowed me to make a difference in the lives of others. Now, 10+ years later, my passion seems to be smoldering. As I kick off the new year…..I can’t seem to latch on to a goal or get excited. I still LOVE ❤ ThirtyOne and the life it has given me yet I am struggling. I know I can still make a difference, but I need to figure out how.
Did I let Satan steal my passion? Or is God leading me towards another path? You may know what I mean – those days when nothing feels right, no excitement or joy in what you are doing, just kind of going through the motions. These days I always wonder…….is this an MS thing, or a recovery issue? I ask for guidance and yet nothing comes, WAIT, right? God’s time, not mine. Can I stamp my feet & throw a tantrum? Will it get me the answers? LOL. Probably not. I feel like it would take longer to hear them.
I’m enjoying cooking again – the new bigger kitchen combined with trying new recipes created the spark. I don’t always understand how you can be creative when you have to cook dinners every night? I never knew how good I had it. When Belinda was growing up, it could be the same thing multiple nights since there was always a practice (gymnastics, field hockey or cheering) to rush off to. When I moved in with hubby, he worked night shift so I only needed to cook 2 meals per week. Yes, I was spoiled and didn’t even know it. LOL. Fast forward to retirement and a BIG (okay big for me) kitchen and I am enjoying trying new things and sharing about them. Is it a passion? Who knows – some days it seems like it and then some days it seems like a chore?
Creating angels and sewing has become another new escape. I am exploring. I have the Etsy store which does okay and I am booking craft shows on a limited basis for the spring. Creating sparks another part of my brain which helps with my MS issues too. I also love hearing the stories of why people pick certain angels as they talk about family and friends.
Working through the steps in my recovery, and learning about me is an ongoing journey. I’m reading again too – light things which don’t take much thought. I’m learning MS has stolen many of my emotions and feelings while in my addiction I stuffed the feelings.
I came across an old link from John Maxwell’s word of the day which was PASSION. Click the link to hear him talk about this AWESOME word. it will definitely trigger some thoughts…
Whether it is your business or something in your life……. I ask you again – what are YOU passionate about? I would love to hear about it. Share your passion with us.
Have an Epic day!