A new year………….
I’m not sure what happened to 2021. LOL. I actually had to flip through my planner to see what went on. The memory is not what it used to be. It seemed to pass in the blink of an eye.
We spent the year working on the house – our forever home. Not a lot needed to be done but it is those little things that catch you off guard. Lots of outside projects got done. I’m looking forward to our first “crop” of fresh garlic which should be ready in the spring. Who knew growing garlic could happen outside in the winter???? We shall see.
The MS life seems to be changing again. There have been more “mini” MS flare ups – foggy brain, unable to process thoughts along with the tingling in my fingers. I have resigned myself to wearing my brace more often when I am out and about. I have to also be careful NOT to overwhelm myself with trying to do lots of things – the realization came after spending a week prepping for Thanksgiving only to have a meltdown and having to take it easy for the rest of the weekend. Not too bad since I got to fur-baby sit. I’m learning new things like: my mind is often “blank” so I spend more time in quiet instead of trying to carry on conversations. Emotions blindside me – out of nowhere there are tears or smiles.
With 3 1/2+ years in recovery, I am feeling better about me. Most days I even like me despite the fact I am struggling to get back to goal weight. Life on life’s terms is not always easy but I’m grateful I found an amazing home group, a new sponsor and attend meetings regularly. Lunchtime meetings work great for this old lady. LOL. ❤ Working through the steps has been eye opener. God has allowed me remember things (in tiny pieces) – in his time not mine when he knows I am ready to face things.
My side hustle as a bag lady is going strong. I’m grateful for the wonderful people it has brought into my life – customers and hostesses who I am blessed to now call friends. I am venturing out in the “food” world. Good food, fast and easy with the ability to tweak the recipes to count my WW points. I love sharing new recipes along with the #epiclife. Of course, having a bigger kitchen has helped because now I actually ENJOY cooking again. I have also been working on new angel designs for the Spring craft season and can’t wait to share them. They will probably show up on the Etsy site soon.
I will admit, I still get stuck in my head with the “woulda, coulda, shoulda” or the comparison game. I’m learning one day at a time to enjoy the moment and know the only person I should be comparing myself to is me, the day before. My basic goal is to just be a better person today than I was yesterday.
Over the last 10 years, I have picked a word – a theme to the year. Last year’s word was GRATITUDE! Gratitude is defined as “the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness.“. I learned to practice gratitude every night or at least I tried to. It was easy to have gratitude for the good things but a struggle during the challenges of the year. I know through the challenges, I learn and grow, for that I am grateful.
Finding a word for this year was a little tougher than I thought it would be. No matter how hard I have tried to avoid it “acceptance” keeps popping up. So I guess I better take the God wink as a sign….. ACCEPTANCE is defined as “the action of consenting to receive something offered or being received as adequate or suitable“. Dictionary definitions sometimes baffle me. I hate when they use part of the word in the definition. Grateful, I found an article while I was looking for a definition called “The 5 Things Everyone Should Know About Acceptance“. These words stood out for me:
Acceptance doesn’t mean you can’t work on changing things.
Okay, I got the message! LOL. Guess there will be a lot of posts on this topic because I don’t think I am the only one who struggles with it! Change is something I tend to struggle with when it comes quickly, my brain doesn’t adjust easily. BUT change over time is a whole lot easier.
What will your world for this year be? Share it with us…Best wishes for a safe healthy and happy New Year from our house to yours!