You do not know what you are going to do; the only thing you know is that God knows what He is doing…It is this attitude that keeps you in perpetual wonder – you do not know what God is going to do next. Oswald Chambers
This year is quickly coming to an end. Reflecting is part of what everyone does this time of year, and I am no different. It has been a year of ups and downs, a roller coaster ride of emotions. When I started the year, I had a picture of what I would look like as the year came to a close. I was sure that I knew it all. I was ready to EMBRACE all that God had to offer – his many blessings.
The vision of goals achieved, plans coming to fruition, my business skyrocketing, goal weight reached and debt paid in full. Nothing seemed impossible as the year began. In the back of my mind though there was the thought that all of this was unreachable. Deep in my heart, my FAITH was not strong. It was built on a foundation that could slip and slide at a moments notice. This hint of doubt opened the door for Negative Nellie and Doubtful Debbie to step in and squash those dreams.
I thought I knew God’s plan. I thought I had figured it out. I thought I knew my purpose. I thought that I had listened and would follow through. I thought “I got this”. Well, just when “YOU got this” is when you know that you are in trouble. We begin to believe in ourselves and our own abilities instead of having FAITH in God.
So what were the results? Some goals achieved while others slipped by. FEAR and doubt crept in and FAITH was lost (only for a moment). The lessons that I learned this year will help me move forward in 2015. In my mind I see a whole new me!
The NEW me that I see is:
- a confident woman who is learning to like (okay, maybe even love herself).
- a woman who believes that dreams do come true.
- a woman who is ready to toss the self-sabotaging traits aside.
- a woman ready to move forward leaving behind the past.
- a woman ready to forgive herself for past mistakes.
- a woman who has grown into an adult (emotionally meeting my age)
I am NOT going to live with regrets about what happened in 2014 or the choices I made – good, bad or otherwise. I am putting away the baseball bat and learning to love myself instead of beating myself up.
Faith means acting on what we believe, even when we can’t actually see the object of our faith. Faith in God teaches us how to put faith in action. When we are motivated by what we do not yet see, we find strength and joy in the living of our lives.
What is YOUR vision of YOU in the new year?
Have a ThirtyOne-derful day!